Fresh Start Challenge Day 2: Slurp

My one thing I do when no one is around me?

I eat straight out of the container. Cool whip becomes an amazing dessert in a convenient bowl with a lid. Leftovers get put straight into the microwave and when it's warmed up yep I eat it right out of it's container.

 I will drink milk out of the gallon container. I will drink wine straight out of the bottle. Granted it's not what I do every time I'm completely alone but if I have had a crappy or stressful day. This is what I do.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 1: Odette

O - Old-Fashion

D - Dependable

E - Eloquent

T - Temperamental

T - Trustworthy

E - Extraordinary

Day 7: Gemini

I am not but I know some people that are Geminis and they don't fit this at all. 

Again I love to laugh over nice comical things. 

I couldn't even remember what sign I was under I had to go look it up. And yes of these I found they fit me. But I know some other people who have this sign and they seriously do not fit some of these. So this is really pointless to me.

Day 6: 30 Facts About Me

1. I love to garden but I like to have a whimsical garden and not an ordinary one.
2. Ferris Wheel are highly romantic to me even when Chris shakes it.
3. I compare myself to other when Chris is around me. Weird I know but I honestly do not do it when he is around.
4. I prefer to bake over cooking.
5. I named my brother Jackjack who is now my adoptive son, Yes I was obsessed with The Incredibles.
6. I used to want be Britney Spears. 
7. I even had Justin Timberlake on my walls.
8. Warp Tour always feels amazing when I go to it!
9. I brush my non dominant hand because it's a scientific fact that using your non dominant makes you more careful and more detailed in brushing.
10. If I could only have two more desserts for the rest of my life it would be milkshakes and cheesecake (Ridge's preferably.)
11. Homemade fries are way more delicious to me than me.
12. I dip sour cream and onion potato chips into chocolate ice cream.
13. I hate the show Storage Wars.
14. I love regular candle but I have fake candles for emergencies.
15. I make my own laundry detergent. $5 gets me 5 gallons. 
16. I love dancing; I know say I get tired of it however, I love being that close to Chris.
17. One crazy thing you would find in my house that if I died you would have a hard time explaining would be flip flops in the freezer.
18. I have stripped at a bar before. No we do not need the details of that.
19. I have part ownership of a bowling alley.
20. I can tie knots in cherries stems with my tongue.
21. Now that I can do them vertical sit ups are my favorite
22. I have been listening to Engima way before 50 Shades Grey mentioned it.
23. I hate when people turn house lights on during the day. Seriously the sun isn't good enough for you!?!
24. I have 7 different dress forms. I plan out my outfits on each one.
25. Assuming things about me is a quick way to piss me off. That's one thing I'm not laid back on.
26. I have gotten away from crazy make up and have started more neutral looks.
27. You touch my future husband or my child in a way I don't approve trust me heaven is where you praying you will end because you'll be living in hell.
28. I would prefer winter year round. 
29. I love to make adult popsicles.
30. When I start having nightmares I place an icepack on my back and go to sleep. No more nightmares.

Day 5: Last Resort

Have I ever thought about ending my own life?

Yes, I have. Shhh I can hear all the gasps.
You have to realize what losing your sister who you have shared a room with all of your life is like to understand that even though my faith is strong part of me still wanting it all to end.

I thought about it twice. Once was right after her funeral. Nobody was going to miss me so I went for a walk. I walked to the bridge. I cried and cried on that bridge. I was able to see the tops of the trees where we found her body. I sat on the side of the bridge.

What stopped me from jumping? My shoe fell off. I watched it as it fell and I knew then I wouldn't jump.

The second time I considered ending my life, I almost succeeded.

My brothers were/are still upset about what happened to Charlotte just as I was. They aided in me trying to kill myself but they didn't know it at the time. I purposefully let Jared's knife slammed into my side. I ran from my brothers. They thought I was going to tell dad and instead I ran where we found her. Jared realized what I had done and chewed me out. After his talk with me I realized that Charlotte wouldn't want that and neither would my mother.